The only reason i run DDDT is because some of my really slow machines take forever to finish--if the people in Africa and South America and wherever this occurs would use DDT it would be less of a problem!!!

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TKH

Marysduby, just the concept of fighting a war against disease, CrUnChInG and cRuNcHiNg, is therapeutic. It focuses the mind to fight the disease sympathetically.

I helps me to crunch cancer, even though I don’t have it. It helps me to know I'm hurting something that has hurt me without even the hint of mercy. In this way, I extract the desire of vengeance and focus it into good. Something my father would have wanted.

Something Mary would have wanted, I'm sure, as well.


Good call Cargod and congrats on 30 cpu years. Sorry it took 1/2 cpu years for me to notice. Been fighting a war against apathy, AGAIN!

Ah, but Marysduby, I have an illness that keeps you nice and healthy, while it also make you pray for death. If the average person should get this, the prognosis is 3 years. I'm past 15. It's called Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). I the past it was called "Shell Shock", as it is common for a soldier in battle to be exposed to stress incomprehendible. When the stress is lifted though, the mind replays the anxiety in an attempt to resolve the pain of the past over and over again. The psychosis can be so overwhelming that those afflicted can die before even knowing they are ill.

What makes my case different is it was not from a wartime event. It was domestic. This means I cant be fully pulled from the environment that created the problems like a war veteran. Because of this, the psychosis can mutate and cycle in such a way, that it becomes impossible to track or cure. Even the psyc community doesn’t even try to do anything to help really, as they tend to just want to "bottle" me. What they find though is there is nothing to bottle. As what has been my key to survival can’t be duplicated.

It is with this in mind, that in the same way Mary would have liked me, that I know she would have never wanted to see you in such pain.

Keep on with the keepin on

Since it looks like we will be in for a wait on the HCC fix. I would not blame anyone here for turning it off until repairs are complete.

It would also help to return our stats. We are slipping.

I am running DDDT to get the most I can to recover team position, but we are about 30k off. I am in conversation with ISIS1 and Gen.Patton, who are to be returning shortly. This looks like about 5k points a day, so things are looking up in the near future.