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Former Member
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I finished the week at the "Falklands, or Germany" crew, and think I switched back home. Chile was great, probably still is, I met V, the girl that was to become my wife in a car park in Santiago. I remember well the tours I took in the vineyards, and still favour Chilean wine. Concha y Torro house produces some of my favourites, Sunrise and Cassilero del Diablo, (spelling... ) are regular visitors to our table..
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Good to see you again, Fossaw.
You get to pick the wine for our picnic  |
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Diablo I rate higher than Sunrise. There are sometimes "special" Diablo wines in the shops, we've tried them, but don't really rate them much higher than the regular wines. This evening we barbecued, no surprise given the weather, and V chose a rare visitor to our table, a French Chardonnay. Picnics are out of doors events, so cooling is the issue, with adequate ice packs for bottles, we have several, Chardonnay's are good, or an Aussie Semillon.
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Fossaw,
Les Français font les fiers avec leur vin, genre le Bordeaux. Mais entre nous, le vin Chilien est bien meilleur ! Les même cépages, mais beaucoup plus de Soleil. ---------- The French are proud of their wine, like Bordeaux. But between us, Chilean wine is much better! The same grapes, but a lot more sun.  |
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There was a French Merlot I used to buy often in England, but the name escapes me, I'll probably wake up at three in the morning screaming it. After travelling in Chile, I really switched. I also like an occasional cape from South Africa.
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Wines are a mystery to me, Fossaw. We visited Santa Rita
- a very large Chilean vineyard - but even with millions of liters of wine, how can they supply us with the same vintage and the same labels for any length of time? So, did you wake up at three in the morning with that name? Good Morning Base Campers! Shop talk None Private thoughts DISCLAIMER Don’t read if very private public confessions make you uneasy Since I experienced the blood clot in January I have on average felt amazingly well mentally – physically I'm fine also after a reduction of one medicine; some 97% of my pre-clot me, I estimate. I estimate my mental health at 110% of my former happy one. Part of the rehab program in my region of Denmark for heart patients is two sessions of group therapy. I assume it is supposed to make you feel better. At the first one we sat there around the table. Eight heart patients, two next of kins. Seven told their stories, and it was clear they had been issued a lot of luggage to deal with. Compared to them, I was travelling light. I’m not afraid – if it happens again it’s fate, destiny. In the meantime, I intend to live as I used to, energy permitting. For me most had been easy. I was experienced in dealing with a crises. My divorce took four years. A lecture at the Heart Association taught me the name for what I had done in addition to ’ruminating’ those four years after my divorce: – pendulum processing I don't recall how I processed the breast cancer. Only that I didn't feel sorry for myself. I knew the statistics. The loss of my parents - well, is not done yet. It's a different department. I had made pendulum processing after my divorce without knowing the concept. It went slowly – my starting position was poor. This time I was a happy person. My desire for life was/is immense. I knew the technique. The trauma that popped up from my father’s three weeks’ unconsciousness from a blood clot in the heart was put at ease by the heart nurse – two one-on-one sessions are part of the heart patient rehab program who simply said: ’The treatment possibilities have evolved immensely since your father was lying in that hospital bed’ Of course. I looked for a tiny scar on the inside of my right writs. But I need to be told. My brain could not bridge that gap on its own. So far so good. Group therapy. I never felt it was for me. I never tried. Well, I met with a positive attitude ready to have my bias weeded. The stories the seven participating heart patients told varied immensely. These people began to mean something to me at first word. They all had next of kins. And many of their thought circled around their partners, children and grandchildren. The very good thing for me to watch/hear was men – the majority was men being able to express feelings and emotions and giving each other caring advice. A void, a vaccuum began to form inside me …. I’m just about as single as you can get. Normally, I cherish this. But that void, that vacuum, expanded at the second session yesterday … Reading about Fossaw and V’s loving relationship plunged right down into that void. I’m very happy for you, Fossaw. The hospital priest who was present at the group therapy sessions rephrased the wedding wows ’ … till death do you part’ into ’ … till illness do you part’ because she had met so many patients for whom that had happened. Where love was not strong enough to bridge the adversity of illness. So, your barbecue, your walk to get aluminum foil, your trip to Langeland, your memories of that car park in Santiago touches me deep down, and I’m so happy for you that your love has been and is strong enough to survive and override what the effects your heart arrest have had of consequenses for both of you. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not jealous. I don’t envy you. I just have a void that all of a sudden became almost tangible. BladeD’s YouTube links to romantic/juicy songs in ’Hexagame’ expanded that void. I have this habit – isn’t internet wondrous? – of looking up the songtexts. Music never meant much to me, but ever since I stumbled into adriverhoef – the Dutch Mr Music and he played sweet ’Lorilee’ for me, I have looked up songtexts and played more music than ever before. Normally, they have just spoken to my imagination, my fantasy. Yesterday, however, they drowned in that void of melancholy. What I need is a good, healthy, healing cry … This shall pass My instinct/intuition was right. Group therapy is not for mermaids …  |
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Fossaw,
J'ai une préférence pour le Merlot, d'une manière générale. Et il y en a de très bons en France, bien sûr. J'en ai aussi bu des délicieux qui venaient de Californie ou d'Afrique du Sud. Mais les vins du Chili, je suis fan depuis que mon petit frère m'a fait goûter (Et comme il voulait être sommelier, il sait très bien les choisir). -------- I have a preference for Merlot, in general. And there are some very good ones in France, of course. I also had some delicious drinks from California or South Africa. But the wines of Chile, I'm a fan since my little brother made me taste (And as he wanted to be a wine waiter, he knows very well to choose them). Little Mermaid, Je suis triste pour toi ... J'espère que d'en parler, t'auras fait du bien. A une époque, je n'allais vraiment pas bien, et j'écrivais des lettres, que je jetais ensuite à la poubelle. C'est un peu bête dit comme ça, mais ça me faisait du bien de 'vider mon sac'. Et pour ce qui est du vide que tu ressens, est-ce que de promener Tessa, ne le comble pas d'une certaine manière ? Excuses moi si c'est indiscret, mais comme tu t'es confiée. Je suis célibataire depuis très longtemps, par choix. Et, ça m'arrivait avant, de ressentir un certain vide, moi aussi. Mais depuis que Louloup est avec moi, ça ne m'est jamais arrivé. Il n'y a rien à voir, entre une relation avec un animal, et être en couple, bien sûr. Mais c'est une présence, et à sa manière, il me donne beaucoup d'amour. Peut-être, que si tu adoptais un chien (ou un chat, suivant les préférences), tu ressentirais moins ce vide ? C'est juste une idée comme ça, mais j'aimerais pouvoir t'aider. ---------- I am sad for you ... I hope that talking about it, you will have done good. At one time, I was not really well, and I wrote letters, which I threw in the garbage. It's a little stupid said like that, but it made me feel good to 'empty my bag'. And when it comes to the emptiness you feel, does not Tessa walk around in a certain way? Excuse me if it's indiscreet, but as you confided. I have been single for a very long time, by choice. And, it happened to me before, to feel a certain emptiness, me too. But since Louloup is with me, it never happened to me. There is nothing to see, between a relationship with an animal, and being in a relationship, of course. But it's a presence, and in his way he gives me a lot of love. Maybe, if you adopted a dog (or a cat, according to the preferences), you would feel less this emptiness? It's just an idea like that, but I wish I could help you. |
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Thank for your emphaty, stefada.
Yes, I have tried writing for myself before - two novels - and I should have thrown this out the way I deleted earlier writings. And it does help one to analyze what goes on in one's mind. I sent the hospital priest an e-mail. I had a feeling, that she was not aware that I did not fit into the standard compartments, and she was so bright that she will be able to incorporate this in future group therapy sessions, where I shall never be present. I slept. Next week I'll meet the heart nurse and discuss the fatigue added to the fibromyalgia fatigue with her. No doubt this has something to do with the vulnarability I experienced. I'm still scared to death for losing my mood. I think and hope it's on it's way up again. If, stefada, it will be a cat - I like Tessa; I like Louloup; I love cats.  Merci pour votre emphaty, stefada. Oui, j'ai essayé de m'écrire auparavant - deux romans - et j'aurais dû jeter cela de la même façon que j'ai supprimé les écrits antérieurs. Et cela aide à analyser ce qui se passe dans l'esprit. J'ai envoyé un courriel au prêtre de l'hôpital. J'avais le sentiment, qu'elle ne savait pas que je n'entrais pas dans les compartiments standard, et elle était si brillante qu'elle pourra l'incorporer dans de futures sessions de thérapie de groupe, où je ne serai jamais présente. Je dormais. La semaine prochaine je rencontrerai l'infirmière de coeur et discuterai de la fatigue ajoutée à la fatigue de fibromyalgia avec elle. Cela a sans doute quelque chose à voir avec la vulnérabilité que j'ai éprouvée. Je suis toujours effrayé à mort pour avoir perdu mon humeur. Je pense et j'espère que c'est de nouveau en route. Si, stefada, ce sera un chat - j'aime Tessa; J'aime Louloup; J'aime les chats plus.  |
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Je n'ai plus la force, de croire en Dieu. Mais j'ai des amis qui sont Prêtres ou Bonnes Sœurs, et ça me fait du bien, de leur parler et les écouter.
Peu importe, ce qui te fait du bien, du moment que tu trouves ce qui te va. Si tu préfères les chats, c'est sûrement ce qui t’irait mieux, plus qu'un chien. Que ça soit l'un ou l'autre, tout l'amour que tu pourras leur donner, ils le rendront au centuple. ---------- I no longer have the strength to believe in God. But I have friends who are Priests or Good Sisters, and that makes me feel good, talk to them and listen to them. It does not matter, what makes you feel good, as long as you find what suits you. If you prefer cats, it is surely what would be better for you, more than a dog. Whether it be one or the other, all the love that you will be able to give them, they will make it a hundredfold. |
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Good Morning Base Campers!
Shop talk We need to find a host team. No hurry, but I for one need some distraction .. flodisar of The International Team doesn't move all that fast. We could go to either 1. Fight Alzheimer's and Cancer They actually have a team thread - albeit very quiet. or 2. Yorkshire Bandits - I see some Yorkshire Bandit lurking now and then - so that's some kind of interest - albeit small. We can go without expectations of any kind, and just crunch. If the vibrations wake someone up: Fine! If not: Fine! We don't have to do it any time soon. Amygdala and pets Warning! You are about to enter a restricted emotional zone  Proceed at your own risk  - I'm in the middle of 'A Bridge too Far' - again I no longer have the strength to believe in God. I never did, but some of my friends are religious, one of them leads a buddhist life. When living in the USA, I was amazed at how big a role religion/faith plays there compared to life in Denmark. I would say that was probably the biggest difference of all. It does not matter, what makes you feel good, as long as you find what suits you. I suppose you're right, but if you start to think about it, you get tangled into what is almost philosophical thoughts like: Can I use anything to make me feel good? If you prefer cats, it is surely what would be better for you, more than a dog. Whether it be one or the other, all the love that you will be able to give them, they will make it a hundredfold. I appreciate your advice, and at some other point in my life I might have taken it  I have had the privilege to be under the command of two cats as an adult - several as a child; I played with them, my mother took the orders. My two cats were never a replacement for the children I didn't have. They were cats. They didn't love me. They expressed satisfaction when I did what they wanted .... enough to make me oblige again, and again, and again - and they expressed the deepest of dissatisfaction to make me stop buying that cheap cat food when I very well knew they liked Whiskas much better. They had distinctly different personalities even as they were mother and son. I loved them to pieces. Sometimes they let me believe they loved me. I hope to be able to travel again at some point, and I shall prefer being free to do whatever I want without inconveniencing other people - or a pet. Also, I'm not sure I want to invest my emotions so strongly  I felt a pang I would rather have been without at that group therapy, but on the other hand: Sometimes you have to visit or revisit the secret corners of yourself - see what your amygdala has on file about you - it has no privacy restrictions .... I walk Tessa because I feel compassion with Downstairs Grethe, but Tessa is 'only' 12 years old, and I'm not sure I would like to carry on with this until Tessa dies. Soon I could be in Downstairs Grethe's situation myself. What then if I had a pet? I'm not a Hard Hearted Hannah - not quite  but I don't like to be ambushed by my emotions or let them take me hostage. It's so important for me to keep having this desire for life, and I need to go about my 'too many feelings/far to emotional' mind in a rational manner. I did that before the group therapy; I should be able to again - even without a pet to comfort me. This said, stefada, give Louloup a hug from me, please  |
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